Last night

As he drove away from her and towards certainty

He gained a usual sense of freedom which he hadn’t felt for so long

He took the wheel and stepped on the gas

Wanting to look away and walk away from the bliss.

Along with it came sudden outbursts of jarred emotions and withered sighs

Of what to feel and what not to feel during those moments of passion with her.

I am not saying I have grown out of you.

Not at all because the air I breathe comes from inside of you

Inside of you.

Inside of

you.

He told himself but still

It pained him to find himself searching for truth this time

When all the while he had been beside her and around her,

who had given him more than enough reasons to risk again.

And to love again.

He still loved her so but this time

He just wanted to drive away towards his assurance.

For he had lost sense of who he was and what he really wanted

Not only for himself but for whatever made him whole

And maybe this drive will take him to that place

That place where his self will surface again and hopefully beside him would be

Her.

you stopped thinking about her

or at least tried but it was not enough to kill the emotions

that had made you feel alive again.

how can you cut something from its roots

when it is the root that holds the beat of you heart?

she lingers away from you.

slowly she fades but the trace of her smile

remains

deep.

He could not stop thinking,

Wondering how things would be like

If he had her close to him.

To finally hear her speak, hear her laugh,

Hear her breathe.

To finally see her lovely smile and look straight into her eyes

And fully understand how beautiful she truly is

Inside and out.

She is his touch of certainty.

His assurance of warmth

His harmony.

He thought about her one last time,

Broke a subtle smile and closed his tired eyes.

He crossed his fingers,

Wishing she'd feel better already.

She is clueless about these facts and

She goes about her day not knowing

How vital she has become.

To him.

*hey lady, i'm wishing you'd feel better soon... stay safe. =)

Halfway through their unanticipated reunion

He looked at her as she glanced outside the car window,

Talking about something he couldn’t really comprehend.

He hears nothing at that time,

Just her heart steadily beating,

Just his eyes rhythmically blinking

Just the current of air,

An empty melody around them, humming.

He tried concentrating on her words

And he looked at her strawberry dyed lips as she spoke

About how the world was slowly coming to a stop,

And for everyone,

Fading.

Falling away.

Words and phrases flooded the endless space between them

Drowning his reveries and thoughts.

But he didn’t have to utter a single word that time.

He only wanted to hear her speak,

Hear her voice

For he didn’t care at all what she had to say.

H e was contented with what was happening

Until he heard her say a word,

So sweetly and nonchalantly endearing.

A word as common as his everyday routine,

As involuntary yet sincere as his prayers at night,

As his admiration of her.

His name.

And then her words finally made sense,

The world was slowly fading away

From him but he didn’t care.

He knew he had already fallen.

Strangely I haven’t seen your smile or heard your laugh

But somehow through these superficial symbols for laughter and grins

You show me every so often

I have come to know your sympathy and sincerity.

But I don’t want to know the why or the how

Of this happenstance because I know I don’t need to.

Everything is just fine the way they are.

The rarity of you to someone placid like me,

Like a sudden burst of supernova on an icy blossom.

Imagine the inevitable splendor.

That is you.

*to a certain lady i know.. stay safe for always! =)